A guest post by Reclaimed Beauty (Heidi Dennis)
My dad once told me that everyone, at one point or another, wonders if they married the wrong person. At first this startled me, however over the years it has provided a strange sense of comfort (spoiler alert: my parents have been happily married for almost 40 years).
As a therapist, I have heard this doubt expressed in my office many times. I’ve also heard this doubt from friends, family members, and even within myself. I remember staring at the beautifully decorated stage on which I was about to get married in a few short hours. The only feeling I could compare it to was standing on top of a high dive. You know that feeling? Stomach in knots, butterflies doing dive bombs in your chest- not to mention the pressure of knowing that everyone will be watching you and waiting on you to make your move. The thought crossed my mind- “You could climb down that ladder. You could run away.” Panic ensues. What do these feelings mean? Are they trying to tell me something? Does this mean I’m making a mistake? And then that all familiar thought that can send fear running down anyones spine entered my thoughts, “What if this is a SIGN?” I don’t want to be that girl who misses out on a SIGN!
But then another thought entered my mind- the thought of this man that I love waiting for me out in the deep end of the pool. The one that I want to be with. If pushing through this fear means being with him, then I will take the leap. I take a deep breath, plug my nose (because no one wants water up their nose, c’mon), and I jump.
What I am proposing is, what if fear and doubt are NORMAL? What if they aren’t signs at all but normal human emotions that we ALL feel?
So, why would the doubts come in the first place? Well, there are a lot of different reasons and I will unpack each of those in future posts…stay turned- more to come. In the meantime, normalize those fears. We ALL have had them!
What about you? Have you ever had these moments of doubt yourself? I would love to hear about them. Please comment below so that others know that they aren’t alone either…or join the conversation at https://m.facebook.com/heidid831/